Sunday, March 13, 2016

The event came and went and I’m still alive. Barely, but I did make it! Almost all patrons were impressed with the event and the one who wasn’t... well there was nothing I could do to fix that. She made assumptions about what the event was without reading any of the descriptions She assumed there would be a presenter, when the event was mostly just a tea party. But otherwise a huge exhausting success. And now my boss thinks that I have a natural talent for event planning. Still unsure about whether or not that is a bad thing, but I guess I will find out.

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Book Review: Princless: Save yourself

This was actually recommended to me in 2013, when it was still a webcomic… aaand I totally forgot about. Until my former library got it last summer. Now… I am in love.

I honestly don't even know where to begin with this. All I can say is praise is not enough. And it completely deserves it.

Think about every trope you have ever read/seen/heard about in fairy tales and princess movies. This story turns every single one of them upside down.

This is a the story of Princess Adrienne who, after vowing to herself to never be a damsel in distress as a young girl, finds herself at the top of a tall tower with a dragon guardian waiting to be rescued as soon as she turns sixteen. Let's just say she is NOT happy about it; so she comes up with a plan... She is going to take her dragon and rescue herself and her six sisters.

Along the way she meets Bedelia, a half-dwarf half-human blacksmith who finally designs some practical female armor (after some advice), and learns just what it will take to be her own hero.

I would recommend this book to anyone who likes fantasy, strong female characters (because there are plenty to go around!), characters of color, princess stories, action stories.

It's pretty much the princess tale I have been waiting for since I learned how to read.

Tuesday, March 1, 2016


It has been forever since I’ve posted something. and that would be because it looks like I’m going to be groomed to coordinate events for the library. I’m currently in the middle of planning a Downton Abbey send off event: an afternoon tea “fit for aristocracy,” complete with food, tea (obviously), video clips, trivia, and a suggested reading list.
Honestly, while I am excited, I am absolutely terrified. My boss thinks it's a fear that no one will show.
But that’s not really it. I know that there are a ton of factors that go into why patrons will or won’t show up to event (weather being number one). I’m more terrified of people who do show up and hate everything. Worst of all, my boss has total confidence in me;  and while that comforts a lot of people, it has never comforted me.
While not the case here, what I’m used to when someone has such faith in me is that they then don’t give me the support I need to succeed. Mostly though, that total confidence is intimidating because what if I’m awful at this? I’ve always felt as if any of the attention I get is unwarranted. I literally cannot handle this kind of confidence.
What I fear most is failing and being a disappointment. It sounds/looks shallow putting those fears into writing like that. But that doesn’t make it any less true.
I’ve never been a standout at anything it feels like. Especially academic work. My good work was never overly praised, or really paid attention to, but my failures? Those were always scrutinized, and heavily critiqued. So maybe I’ve just been trained to hate any kind of attention because nothing good has ever come out of it for me. And maybe I see that total confidence as a type of attention. I don’t really know.
What I do know, I just have to keep telling myself I can do this, just one step at a time.